Head Case
Hi everyone. First off I would like to apologize to all of my friends that I did not get to visit with on this trip. It has been several years since I have been to Long Island and while I was there I took some time to clear my head.
I am sure that everyone needs some time off. Like most of you I’m sure my life never stops and when this chance came up I took it. After a few days on Long Island I went up to see my mother in PA. I am still at her house now and I will be heading down to NYC for this weekends workshop in a few min. I am looking forward to it. A little time away has made me miss the bells.
Usually I feel very solitary. I tend to keep to myself and I exist in my head most of the time. I have been told that it is not a good thing but it’s just who I am. I imagine that is why I like the bells so much. It is a relationship I am born for, one that doesn’t really fit, that hurts a lot, and ends up being worth every moment of the fight.
The problem with living in my head is that I tend to slide. I can’t always control my emotions and when I slide people get hurt. After that I usually retreat to my head, apologize and walk away. Some of you have probably gotten an apology like this from me. They are as true as my being can possibly make them.
I know this is a weird blog. Sorry about that, I’m in a weird place right now. Hopefully all this emotion will translate into something good. I mean, there has got to be some upside to being such a damn head case,,, right?
kettle,
