A new stage 5
I feel good, really good. I feel better than I have in a long time. I am in Stage 5 now but it has been different then the last time. I did
not feel good going into my last competition. I had been distracted and overwhelmed with things that just don’t care about kettlebell. I doubt that this feeling is unique to me.
I still did my training, but I must admit I did not do it with all of my heart. I think I was a little burned out. I needed a rest and I never really took it. I pushed through but all the training was “I just have to make it to the end” training. That kind of training is no fun.
There are things I could have done to be better than I was. All the things I really hate to do. They were just too much to think about. They were just a little too strong for me, too heavy.
When my snatch set was over I was going through a lot of emotions. I was thinking that I actually had trained harder than I thought I had. I must have to put up the number I did. I was thinking that I actually had a second gear. I was thinking that my number was closer to where I want to be. It was not quite my long-term goal but it was close. It was a lot closer than I thought it would be.
I was lying on the floor in the hallway trying to catch my breath. I was trying to slow my heart down. I was trying to pull it together.
I’m too fat.
I’ve got no wind.
I should have done more of those damn glove snatches and run more miles and ate better food and got more sleep. If I had kept my eye on the ball what would my number have been? If I had done my stretching and my cool-down every day and lost the weight would I have been able to rest?
I can’t rest in the rack. My lockout is better so I get a little rest there but the rack keeps sliding off of my belly. My arms are not too short. My waist is not too low. I am not injured or handicapped in any way. It’s my weight and my flexibility, my life long nemesis and his annoying sidekick…
Fatty and Stiffy.
Up until now stage 5 has been about blowing off steam but I feel like my whole last cycle of training was so messed up that what I need right now is more structure not less. I am not pent up and ready to explode. I am coiled and ready to train. During that snatch set I emptied the basement.
This stage 5 has been 2 weeks of stretching and running and regeneration. I have been working my diet to the point where it is very clean again. I haven’t jumped on the scale yet but I am already feeling lighter. I am ready for the next cycle. I haven’t been under 300 lbs in 10 years. I have gotten to 314 (just before Siberia) but have been hovering around 320 ever since. It is time to get that done.
I think I kind of crashed after the Siberia trip. It was such a huge thing in my heart that I just couldn’t adjust when I got home. I think that is over now. I am ready for the next big push.
I had a big jump in my snatch numbers. I had been waiting for it and it finally
showed up…just a little. Now I am looking for the jump in my jerks. My lockout is actually straight now. It has taken me almost a year to get my arms straight and locked over my head. Now it is all about the rack.
The rack and the wind.
I am ready to look for them again.
Today I will look for them on the mountain.
I’ll let you know how it goes.
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